Im expecting too much . Im suffering .
Okay , just excited cause tmr we will do pizza . :] hahs , im damn sad now . not in the mood. i cried in school . LOL. haiz. neh mind . Just let things go their way . I don't fking care.
day 1 - getting off the rollercoaster
soo. this is what it looks like. starting this thing again. instead of going out with 'em, I'd rather stay here and do mah thing. atm, I realized three things. 1.) I am not overthinking. 2.) I feel like I'm faked out. 3.) I'd rather feel things than to be without someone right now. maybe this blog will be my confidant. I'd tell everything here. knowing that not all can see what's in here. - damn yani, damn. so everything happened in just a spur of a moment - everything that I thought was real, deep and true, it just turned to nothing. all those conversations, were they fake? "alam mo din namang mawawala diba? ba't ka nagkakaganyan?" :( I just miss my rollercoaster. but it's not that you can ride it anytime, everytime. /y.