Now and forever.

soo. this is what it looks like. starting this thing again. instead of going out with 'em, I'd rather stay here and do mah thing. atm, I realized three things. 1.) I am not overthinking. 2.) I feel like I'm faked out. 3.) I'd rather feel things than to be without someone right now. maybe this blog will be my confidant. I'd tell everything here. knowing that not all can see what's in here. - damn yani, damn. so everything happened in just a spur of a moment - everything that I thought was real, deep and true, it just turned to nothing. all those conversations, were they fake? "alam mo din namang mawawala diba? ba't ka nagkakaganyan?" :( I just miss my rollercoaster. but it's not that you can ride it anytime, everytime. /y.

ganto pala to? hahaha astiiig.

MALAPIT NA PASUKAN. :3 Makikita ko nanaman siya :">

Hey. good evening. Cramming a lot these past few days. I hate it. I hate this habit. ughh. But I can't take it away, what can I do? Sheez. Exams are over. I'M LOVING PHYSICS, AND MATH, YES. HAHA. :DD Di ko siya maalis sa isip ko. yeah. :) well, I'll just write something if I already have this so-called "heightened-emotion" ayt ayt. yeah. :D goodnight goise. 82324 *hearts*

THIS IS TO SOMEONE VERY SPECIAL. HAHA. SPECIAL CHILD TO EE. :D Okaaaaay. PAALALA : OO, PUPURIIN KITA NGAYON, BIRTHDAY MO EE. :)HAHHAHA. JOKLANG. :D Okay, let's start. Isang babaeng nakilala dahil sa kanyang baby face, pero pag nakilala mo siya, mas magugustuhan mo ang pagiging sabog niya, ang pagiging SUPER B! SUPER BAGAL! Sa lahat nga ng mabagal sa kanya lang ako natuwa eh. hahah!! Isang girl na nakilala kasi marami siyang SUITORS! Ang haba kaya ng pila! Haba ng hair niya eh! SIYA NAA!  A good friend, a weird one, pero worth talking to. Isang tao na akala mo nung una suplada, (mukha ka kasing suplada ee. :)) ) yun pala kabogable ang actions pag nakilala mo na. haha!! A friend na malalapitan in times of need. Isang babaeng matutuwa ka pag nakilala mo ng mabuti. At birthday niya ngayon!! Sabi niya di raw siya nagkaron ng matinong birthday. Ang emo nga niya eh. HAHA! Kahit gano siya kasabog. Alam ko naman deep inside, malaki pinoproblema niya. She's one strong person. ID...

The day was soo tiring. I'm sick. Yet, happy. :) Okaaay. Ahmm. not really in the mood to put something.. Just that ... I'm coughing too badlyy. :/ Yeah, Ta-ta. till here. -yani WE'RE GROWING APART, HAPPY?

Oh. Hi there. late to post. HAHA. :) Sheez. Nabasa ako ng ulan! D:  First DAY. D: PHYSICS. UGHH D: AND.. I DECIDED TO TYPE IN BIGBIG LETTERS! AND I ALSO DECIDED NOT TO SLEEP. I lost my Flashdrive. Fuck lo. D: Yeah. Till here. BBYE. MISS KO NA KAYA YUNG BUSY KONG FRIEND NA YUN. NO WONDER DAMI KONG KAAGAW NA FRIENDS RIN NIYA SA KANYA. :) :/

:( I don't know what to feel right now.. Should I feel sad? I feel so left out. :( Why should I feel this way. I'm so fucked up. I shouldn't be feeling like this. I hate this. :( Guess I just need someone to talk to. It's been 2 weeks full of loner-ness. Haays. My companion is just this white cat of mine. He kisses me a lot. He's my bestfriend. ISH. I SOUND SO EMO. Again, I tell you yani, Damn you. Damn, Rational thinking? I don't know what to say. I don't know If I'm just being too emotional. Di pa naman full moon. Tinotopak kasi ako pag full moon. Haha. :)) I just feel like something is lacking. I don't know. Ugh. DAMN YOU YANI, DAMN. just accept the fact no one knows you that very well. Only yourself knows you yani, only you, bitch. Invisible.

Is everything really meant to change? Hey, like I said, I'm going to update! :D Told ya so. I've been feeling like no one wants to talk to me, like no one will put an effort to be with me, I mean hey, I did my part okay? But.. but.. :( I went emo. LOL funny! Naah, seriously. I can't feel that someone is out there, or maybe there are people out there. I feel so invisible. :/ I want attention, I guess. By attention I mean A LOT. I'm so ewan. haaay. I need someone WEIRD to talk with. My health teacher was right. When we have problems, talk to a weird person. It surely is worth the effort. I have BUSY friends. I'm so fucked up. My old friends, I don't know, they are already happy. WHO AM I TO MAKE SINGIT SINGIT? :/ Di nalang ako mag papaepal. Minahal ko kaya siya. hanggang ngayon. 1 year na. Tapos ngayon nagiging clingy siya. ewan ko. clingy ba tawag dun? basta. lumalapit nanaman siya. Tapos ako naman tanga, nahulog nanaman. Ayun. Pero may iba na s...

*CLEANS DUST IN MY BLOG* Oh yeah, that's what I'm talking about. LONG TIME EH?! YEAAH! :D Sorry for not updating too much. I just forgot my password. Ishy mee! bad bad bad. You know what? Blogging helped me alot. It helped me express myself and many more. Oh, I really don't know what to write for today, just want to say That If my connection works fine, I'll be blogging again! YAY. :D Hmm. I'm a senior now. SLDM, SKWATERS, YES. I LOVE THEM <3 Time is flying too fast. Yeaaah. (sighs) I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes. :/ Met new friends, new classmates, and new teachers. Happy?  Yes. I should be. :D Still don't have that INTENSE FEELING of writing something, maybe my fingers are just longing for the keyboard, they love it so much. :D Okay, till here. I'ma post something when I'm ready. Yeaaaah. APPRECIATION. RATIONALITY. POISE. =D

You got me gone, :) Okaaaaay. We still don't have any internet connection, which leads me being here at a computer shop for months. Nice right? -.- ishishish. Know what? I am writing in diaries again. Don't know why. I've been writing since I was Grade 5. >:)) Ja, till here. see you, later , sooner ? I dunno. JAAAA! :D

SHIT. IT IS MONDAY TOMORROW. I'm so pissed off. :/ ENGLISH AND FILIPINO - DONE AP - NOT A SINGLE PIECE OF SHIT WAS DONE. AND THAT WAS THE HARDEST PARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. D: Maybe I should start now. HAYLEY. <3 I love her. Till here. ;) 'That for you I'd do it all over again.'

Yesterday was love, Today is reality. It's fucking over.

"Never believed that things happen for a reason." Suddenly I fell in love with the song, I don't know, maybe its the melody? The beat? or it's just the lyrics. Should I say I never believed that things happen for a reason? I don't know, It's just a sign of hope for someone, something, etc. And what the hell am I typing in here? I'm so ewan you knows? :)) People say that Music today is such a mess, but for me, Good musicians and artists are gaining fame again. Their songs just bring inspirations to those who are hopeless and weak emotionally. I just love them, Bruno Mars, Pink, and maaany moreeeeeee. Today , kinda boring day. I should do English And History Assignments. ALSO CHEMISTRY. Chem assignment only contains one item, but I admit it, I didn't listen to the discussion, that's why I don't know what to do. 'em so fucked up. I wish that it will be Monday tomorrow. [Even though I seem to be lazy doing projects, hella care bout that...

I'M BROKE. SOMEONE HELP ME. HAHA. SABOG NANAMAN AKO. :)))))

SONNET 18 Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? Thou art more lovely and more temperate: Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May, And summer's lease hath all too short a date: Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines, And often is his gold complexion dimm'd; And every fair from fair sometime declines, By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd; But thy eternal summer shall not fade Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest; Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade, When in eternal lines to time thou growest: So long as men can breathe or eyes can see, So long lives this and this gives life to thee. Next lesson In English, I guess. I find english subject more interesting. Haha. :) I'M UPDATING TOOOO MUCH. But I'm loving it. HAHA. FROM Will shakes to.. Paramore! Yeahyeah, I know, The two farros left, But it's okay with me.  PARAMORE IS (STILL) A BAND. I want a shirt of that. HAHA.

"Being gay is cool. I just wish gay kids realized that earlier in their lives." - Mila Kunis  OMG, I love her so much. HAHA.

I'M IN LOVE WITH WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE.  BOO-HOO. So yeaah.  I can't wait for march 7. Gonna watch Romeo and Juliet. BUT. WHY WATCH THE CLASSICAL ONE? I WANT THIS. SEE? :| Leonardo looks more like Jesse McCartney there. "Parlez vous Francais?" Am I still typing it right? HAHA. Till here! ja!

Nothing but a good-old blogging. I miss blogger. Been tumblr-ing and facebooking for a while. Sorry for ditching you, omgomgomg. ;) So. UPDATES! -I'm so inlove with blackswan. so much. Kinda watch the movie! -Pressured by school works. you know? :) -Haz a little crush on Mila Kunis.  Hey, she's soo cute. I love her eyes! Today, 'em gonna go to anna's house after lunch, do our project for chemistry. Going to be busy busy busy. I'M LOVING FISH HOOKS TOO! Sooooooo. More updates daily? I'm gonna try ! I promise. RELINKING PEOPLE. TAG MEEE.

blablabla. lazy post. :) Done projects this time. Im thinking someone's mad at mee. :|